#Shivika FF ~ Contrasting Similars -> Woh Jo Mohabbat H

Shivaay started d car journey, dreaded by annika ,with d unusual itself,opening d car door for her. She wanted this day to end right here right now as it was full of surprises which were no where near ending. She kept her face down nd simply sat in d car. He, opening d car door for her was another new nd she didnt wanted to think about tht.

The silence tht followed was uncomfortable for them both. Shivaay knew tht this was d moment, he will have to start d talks as she was looking outside d window nd will never ever like to discuss ,what had happened.

Slicing into d silence, he started..

"Urmmm!! Ahunhh!! Annika...I wanted to say something"

*no response..didnt even turned her head*

*why cant he just let it go..ab kya baat karni h..saari baat aaj hi karni h kya..she was almost near her threshold nd didnt wanted any other scene..already accepting all d events of d day was too much for her*

But he continued d torcher with regularized pauses...

"annika... annika.. anniKA..anniKA..anniKA..

FHAT D WUCK ..I M TALKING TO U...ANNIKAAA!! "

*and he ended it loudly almost screaming*

And she turned in frustration with big pool of her eyes welling up with tears all ready to flow.

"KYA H BILLOOJI? kya baat karni h aapko..samjh ni aata aapko ki mujhe aapse koi baat ni karni"

[whats it billooji? What do u wanna talk about? Dont u understand tht I dont wanna talk to u?] 

She was crying now nd she was screaming now nd hell! She was flashing anger like fire out of her blazing eyes now.

Shivaay screeched d car to a halt on d side of an empty road immediately..both absorbed d sudden jerk nd he turned towards her...

*in softest modes he could speak*

=" nahin..just tht..I wanted to say..that..tht..forget it..

*taking out d handkerchief nd offering h

"Ok..Dont cry...ro mat annika...yeh lo..le lo..."

*what is this girl na..he was wondering to himself..she is a mess right now..sobbing nd blabbering nd all angry still she doesnt forgets to irritate me..by calling me billooji..urghhh!! But then he knew it was intelligent choice to not point out tht right now..he just wanted her to not cry..if being honest with himself,he was finding the sight quite unbearable **

For tht matter, who said she had stopped blabbering or shedding those big tears..shivaay was doubtful tht she had even listened to him..as she was continuing with her own ...

"Waise tho aapko mujhse koi baat karni hoti ni...aapko main zara bhi pasand ni hoon..but nahin...aaj tho aapko mujhse baat karni h...kyunki jaante hai na ki main abhi baat nahin karna chahthi tho bas! Aapko mujhse abhi hi baat karni h..poorey billoji jo ho aap"

[Generally,u dont want to talk to me,u dont like me at all,but today u wanna talk to me bcoz u know tht I dont.u r such a billloji]

She was talking nonstop along with her sobs.

"Ok! Ok! main ni baat karoonga..but tum rona band karo..yeh le lo..PLEASE!!!"

[ok! Ok! I wont talk but u plz stop crying nd take this..PLEASE]

**'THE' Shivaay Singh Oberoi has said please to her ..another shocker of d day nd it did made her stop a little nd try to control her emotions..she accepted d handkerchief nd wiped her tears**

**And who said d episode had ended, she was ANNIKA nd she never did anything which I asked or even requested her to do..Damn! I Had even said please...I NEVER DO THT...but ..NO!! she has pledged in her life to do opposite of what I say..

Thanks god for d mercy..tht she had stopped with d cries but no..she will still continue with her speech...urghh!!

Shivaay rolled his eyes in exasperation nd prepared himself to listen**

Now , as she was done with wiping d tears off,she continued in little sombre tones

"Aaj tho poora raita phail gaya...Ek tho pehley woh andhera, aap ni jaante bilooji par mera andhere se bahut gehra rishta h, ek woh hi aisi cheez hai jo mujhe kaboo main kar leti h..warna tho aap jaante hi hain..main kisi se nahin darti..aur phir ...

Phir...phir aap aa gaye..na jaane kya karne aaye thy aap wahan..aur phir..phir tho aap jaante hi hain..WOH ho gaya..mujhe tho kuch bhi samjh ni aa raha h aur upar se aapko mujhe ghar bhi chod ke aana h aur ab chahte hain ki main aap se baat bhi karoon..aap kuch bhi ni samjhtey...ki yeh jo..."

[First tht darkness,u dont know billoji but darkness and me have a deep connection,its d only thing in d world tht controls me otherwise as u know, I m not scared of anything..nd then u came..I dont know why..nd then u know what happened..WOH happened nd I cant understand it all nd now u have to drop me home too nd then u wanna talk too...u dont understand a thing..its not...]

Shivaay interrupted...

"WOH KYA ANNIKA"?

*he was suddenly feeling not guilty at all..her words had somehow hinted to him tht she maybe saying all opposite words but she was covering up..deep down she liked d kiss too* 

annika was deep in her own moods speaking non stop but his interruption made her look up nd there he was..looking daringly into her eyes with tht little smirk forming on his face.

"HUNHHH?? " she squeaked as if trying to ignore d question she very much understood

Shivaay..

"Maine poocha ...WOH kya?

Tumne bola na ki WOH ho gaya."

**D damn cheapda man was deeply smiling now...urghhh!!***

"Woh jo...woh..." she tried...but she knew tht whatever conversation/interaction/ or fight or whatever it was tht they were having till now nd she was winning ..was lost..as just on d power of one word..game was again in control of shivaay singh oberoi.

She was again losing her voice,her context, her reasons nd her SELF as d self confident nd smirking sso was coming close..way too close for her liking.

Shivaay took way d handkerchief she was holding full tight in her hands which were lying on her lap nd put it in his pocket.He took her hands in his own nd pulled her tight towards him.He very softly tucked away a strand of hair falling on her face behind her ear while still holding her hands with other..nd then when she was all mesmerized in those deep blue/green eyes..he finally spoke..

"Annika!!! Main ni jaanta ki tumhe andhere se darr kyun lagta h...aur jaanta hoon ki reasons tum mujhe batana bhi ni chahti ...par main humesha tumhare liye hoon..I mean. u know..agar tumhe kabhi bhi darr lagey ..u can always call me **he hesitated a little in d end nd did tried to cover up his almost I CARE FOR U nd I PROMISE U stance**

Aur...WOH...WOH jo hua na annika **he was d confident smirking freak again** ...mujhe thodi der pehley tak uska afsoos tha..kyunki main ni chahtha tha ki tum socho tht..tht..maine mauka ka phaayda uthaya ..u know...par ab jo main karne waala hoon ...USKA MUJHE KOI AFSOOS NAHIN H"

[I dont know why u r scared of darkness nd I know tht u dont wanna tell me d reasons for d same..but I m always there I mean. u know..if u ever feel scared..u can always call me **he hesitated a little in d end nd did tried to cover up his almost I CARE FOR U stance**

And WOH tht happened **he was d confident smirking freak again** ...till few moments back I regretted tht..bcoz I didnt wanted u to assume tht I took advantage of d situation..but The thing I m going to do now..I dont regret it at all]

With those almost declaring words..he again for second time in a single day ,cupped her face..brought her close..touched her lips way too slowly with his fingertips as if seeking permission for what they both knew he planned to do next...nd when she sighed a very low voiced moan..he gently placed his lips on hers.

Nd gentleness ended there...kiss of shivvay this time was hard,possessive,demanding nd way too intense..as if he wanted her to answer it back with equal intensity of her own..as it was there first sane minded kiss..he wanted her to show him tht she felt d need too...nd SHE DID.she reciprocated it with her open mouth submission...he smiled into her mouth nd she smiled back too ..once again their tongues were playing d sexy games nd very boldly she ran her fingers thru his hair bringing him more into her.

Always touchy about his hair SSO..this time didnt minded her doing so ..instead he took d signal nd increased d pressure.His hand was running over her back nd it looked as if he was trying to seep into her thru her mouth only.Both were demanding..both were grasping d ends nd both never wanted d moment to ever go away..

But finally they both started losing breaths nd kiss was done with.Shivaay touched his temple with hers.Annika was breathing heavely looking passionately into his eyes nd he was equally sighing away.Both didnt knew for how long they stared at each other like this taking deep breaths..with shivaay still holding her very close with their heads touching.

Reasons were done with ..consequences will be taken care of tommorow...for now their eyes had confessed to each other ..so had their lips..both had finally accepted the sexual tension which existed between them from d very beginning nd both didnt wanted to lose this moment of unsaid YES.

After few mins..Shivaay yet again moved in nd kissed away her dried tears on her both cheeks .Annika was again overwhelmed with emotion.No one has ever cared for her like this before ..tears were yet again almost forming up when shivaay pulled her and hugged her tight .

""Sshhh!!!! Ab phir se rona mat...not again okayy...""

"Hummm!!!""" She replied trying to control.

Few more moments passed away and when shivaay was fully confident tht she is relaxed ..he unlocked d hold nd asked softly...

"Chalein?"

Annika blushed nd looked away..nd said 

"Haan"

**uff!! Its so tough facing him now...annika tune aaj kya kya kiya h .. she was again snapped back to reality nd was again feeling as stupid as ever but super elated too..but ofcourse she couldnt show him tht now..can she? So she turned away nd smiled to herself**

Shivaay knew what she was going thru so he gave her space nd drove silently.He had never felt this happy in his life before.He was so enjoying this silence with HER.

He finally dropped her home...she silently went out of d car as quickly as it stopped not even giving him d chance to say a thing or open d door for her.Before he knew..she was inside d house. But this time, he was not angry or irritated ..he just smiled nd drove away looking forward to d next day when she will be back in d mansion.

#Shivika FF ~ Contrasting Similars -> And She Finds Her Light (Extended)

ANNIKA
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she ran..found a corner hidden from various eyes of big mansion nd she breathed a loud sigh..
Her emotions were haywire,hes senses were flummoxed..'THE' SHIVAAY SINGH OBEROI had kissed her nd she like a pining buffon ,totally jumbled in her thoughts, had reciprocated tht kiss with equal intensity.

The thought of kiss brought a little shy smile on her face.

She remembered being scared nd zoned by her biggest fear..'DARKNESS'..she couldnt much remember what happened after tht..normally she doesnt... but then she confusedly remembers some kisses nd pecks on her face..was tht him? Did shivaay singh oberoi kissed me all over my face?

THE BIG 'O' of shock made her utter an unplanned "Haawww!!!Kya kar rahi thi tu annika".
Offo!! I havent just thght it..damn! I HAVE SAID IT.She quickly covered her mouth with her hand to prevent further crazy voice eruptions of her shocked thoughts.

This was her safe corner nd she planned to stay here for a while till she could gather her thoughts.So she doesnt wanted anyone to know she was here.She wasnt yet ready to face d world and splly not shivaay**damn! When did I started calling him by his name? Uff**

With this thght..she corrected herself in her own mind.."No he is a bagadbilla nd all this must be my imagination only" but then again d vivid thghts of tht kiss struck her.

She maynot remember much of other things tht happened...but she did remembered d kiss in detail..

How she had put her hands on his chest nd sort of herself invited him to kiss her..how he had just placed his lips on her lips nd she had felt a shiver ran down her spine. How shivaay hadnt stopped at tht nd started kissing those small little kisses on her lips..biting her lower lip..sucking smoothly at the upper one..nd then tht little pressure kiss at the corner of her mouth has been her undoing nd she had opened her mouth for him to plunder in.how he has soaked away her breath in one go ..touching her tongue nd making her moan out heavely nd heavenly.their lips had started playing with each other..touching nd twisting together...nd all d sucklings nd moans produced still rang in her mind..ufff!! It has started soft nd gentle but had ended up fully intensified ...if light had not come back on, then she doesnt know what they would have done next...

With this thought, she came jumping back to reality nd felt tht its abt time to face d world.She smiled again with the sweet memory of the togetherness .She knew her relation with shivaay was messed up now but for now she could handle one thing at a time..so..She just adjusted her hair and clothes somewhat nd moved towards d hall.
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Shivaay
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He got up, sat down on d sofa nearby with eyes wide open nd looked straightly beyond without blinking his eyes.
Trying to control his ragged breathings ..he finally realized what d heck he has just done.
He d dumbwit brute had taken advantage of a girl who wasnt feeling her best.He was supposed to help her nd here he was kissing her out of her breaths ...what a fool.

Yup! The kiss ...ahhh!! it was something else..he had never experienced such a kiss before even though he was not tht inexperienced.. her soft lips, her complete submission nd those sweet sexy moans..he has holding her face nd they were literally locked together to d depths...but damn!!! I..we..us..shudnt have done tht ..not like this atleast . **so in any other situation..wouldnt he have mind kissing her..urghhh!! Stop ur thoughts**

Just...
Just only if she hadnt put her hand on his heart...all was going smoothly..all those pecks nd kisses were purposedly done to smooth her out of her dark zone..she needed those caresses ..tht attention nd tht knowledge tht she was safe and protected nd he intended to do tht only..but then she went on and put her hand on my heart...nd I lost control of d situation...

*Yeahhh right!! Blame it all on her..good going* urghhh!!! He did to himself.He knew tht he was sounding lame to himself only then how would he ever explain to her..how would he face her now..but then he had to.
For once in life, the highty mighty shivaay knew tht he needed to apologise nd then he has some questions too which he needed reply of. SO he sighed, got up nd started walking towards d hall.
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"Annika beta...tum theek ho na? Daadi moved towards her with worried expressions.

"Main theek hoon daadi" annika replied trying to smile and relax.

Daadi ="mujhe pata h tumhe andhere se kitna darr lagta h beta..isliye shivaay ko bheja tha maine..woh mila ni tumhe.."

Annika quickly reacted interrupting daadi's obvious next questions " haan daadi main thoda darr gayi thi but phir light aa gayi aur main yahan aa gayi..ab main theek hoon" she intentionally excluded shivaay from her answer.

Rudra,om,priyanka all were moving towards them nd she knew tht she needed to quickly compose herself nd get ready for their questions too.

They almost all asked together the obvious question as to was she allright? And she nodded a yes.

Rudra="didi,shivaay bhaiyaa kahan h? Woh gaye thy aapko dhoondne? Khud hi ghum gaye..aapko nahin miley kya?"

Shivaay=" main yahan hoon rudra" shivaay replied walking in.

Annika's breath was suddenly lost again..uff what was happening to her..she hadnt felt so awkward in her life before..she damn! Needed a quick composure again.

She looked away from him nd said to daadi
"Main chalti hoon daadi..bahut late ho gaya h"

Daadi="ruk beta,main driver ko bulati hoon woh tumhe chod ke aayega..iss waqt main tumhe akele ni jaane doongi"

Damn! She is surely so so angry with me..isnt even looking my way...so in quick urgency of amending d situation he exclaimed...
"MAIN CHOD AAONGA ANNIKA KO"

All of them turned and looked together at him in complete sync nd all were silently shocked.
"whattt!!! Raat ho gayi h aur woh thoda darr nhi gayi hai na..so thts why..urmmm..its just tht main usko safely ghar chod aaonga...what else ..WHATS D ISSUE IN THT?"
he blabbered nd said d last words a little more his own style.

Urghh!!! He get those sneaky smiles..they all were now smiling wickedly in sync nd he knew what those smiles meant.He made a complete ignore nd looked at her.

He was ready to fight her today if she refused but to his complete surprise...she didnt said a word nd started moving towards d door.

All of them exchanged shocked expressions including shivaay because they all knew this was not the normal annika who was always ready to put up her case nd couldnt be forced to do anything against her will.

Ahhh...maybe she is still in shock ..tht thght crossed his mind and his expressions softened. Nd he walked besides her out of hall. HE NEEDED TO TALK TO HER.

What was d use of arguement ...she was neither in state of mind to do so nor she wanted more questioning sessions..bcoz she knew tht further questions will lead to all of theirs curiosity abt what happened in his room nd she was never in this world answering tht.so she moved towards d door ,resolving to herself to not utter a single word in d car nd just get this day over with..

Shivika FF ~ Contrasting Similars -> And She Finds Her Light

#Shivika OS ~ and she finds her light 

**Just an imagination with a little writer's liberty **

Annika **Uff! I have been preparing so much for the undated and undecided marriage of baagadbilla..jaane inko shaadi karni bhi h yaa nahin** she was blabbering as usual talking to herself bcoz yet again it was dark nd she was late nd she was finding all her tasks more and more hopeless with each passing day.

As she was just about to go, daadi called her nd asked her to place file containing various catalogues in sso's room..urghh!!

She wanted to say "WHY ME" but then how could she question daadi so she took the file nd brisk walked towards his room .She didnt wanted to stay more than few secs in room of 'Khadoos Singh Oberoi' as it was late nd he could return any minute nd she was in no mood to face him right now.

She placed the file on table nd was just about to turn nd go when there was a loud sound nd it was total blackout...it was dark..complete dark nd there she was ..numbed in a sec ..unable to move. 

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Shivaay entered d hall nd was walking towards daadi sitting in d living room when suddenly all lights were out.

Daadi almost yelled in a high pitched voice.. "yeh kya ho gaya..itna andhera kyun ho gaya..koi h"

He ran towards her ..making his way thru darkness nd stumbling here nd there..

"Daadi main yahin hoon "

Pinky' s loud voice came from other corner of the hall "o my maata! yeh kaise ho gaya..arey koi mombatti le aao..yaa phir woh emergency waali light..kahan gaye sab "

Soon hall was lightened up with flourscent lamps nd candles nd all family members gathered in d hall..shivaay was busy screaming at security for finding reason of the blackout nd correct the problem immediately ..he wanted to be sure tht this was not another threat plann ed by gayatri .

Om="relax shivaay..electricians have been called nd problem is being looked into..abhi kuch der main lights will be on again"

Rudy * in a scared voice * ="in light of these lamps..aap sab kitne darwane lag rahe ho..."

Om nd shivaay exclaimed together ="shutup rudra" 

Suddenly daadi remembered something and called shivaay worridely.."billoo,billoo.."

Shivaay="kya hua daadi?" *goes and sits besides her*

Daadi="billoo woh annika, usko maine tumhare kamre main bheja thA..woh..woh usko andhere se darr lagta h beta...usko andhere se bahut darr lagta h..tum...

And before she could complete..shivaay was running thru the darkness,,towards his room.

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"""Jiske panjey ko ittu sa diya gira deta ho

Usse bhi kya darna..jisse jugnu hara deta ho"""

haan..saahil..haan...bas yahi boloongi main...

**she was repeating d words all literally in her broken voice again and again**

Shivaay entered d room but it was all so dark there.He couldnt see a thing.

"Annika...annika...r u there? tum yahan ho? Annika..."

No one replied.

Shivaay ** if she was here,she would have replied ..she must have left before blackout..damn! Why didnt I brought a torch or candle..I shud come back with it nd check again**

With these thoughts in mind he turned to go back when he heard d words..

ni andhera ni h...jug..nu.. hara..deta..h...andhera...ni h..diya ..gira...deta ..h...ni...andhera...ni...h..ni..h..

Shivaay="annika..annika tum yahan ho..kaha ho tum? Kya hua annika.."

He was going forward slowly..trying to search her with hands..sound was coming from near d table placed at corner of the room..so he moved there on impulse..there he stumbled nd felt her..

Annika was sitting by the side of the table..her hands were tightly enclosing her knees nd she was rocking back nd forward nd blabbering all these words.

Shivaay bent down nd shooked her by the shoulders.. nd spoke softly..

"Utho annika..get up..kya hua tumhe"?

He was getting worried about her more strongly with each passing second .

She flinched away nd trembled.

Shivaay knew by now tht she has entered some dark zone and was not in a position to comprehend the surroundings.Annika , he knew of ..or has started knowing abt is a strong girl but this girl sitting here in darkness was d most vulnerable version of herself. She was having some kind of hysteria attack nd most probably due to darkness.Why is she scared of darkness?

But he shoved away all introspections nd questions erupting in his mind nd sat down beside her .

Shivaay didnt knew how to go about it..but he did the first thing tht came to his mind...he hugged her tightly from d side enclosing her rocking self in his hardest embrace...

""SSshhh!!! MAIN HOON YAHAN ANNIKA..MAIN HOON YAHAN ...ANNIKA..SUNA TUMNE...MAIN HOON YAHAN..."

It was d impulse or the need ...he didnt knew but he kissed into her hair ...

And she suddenly stopped talking.

But she was still trembling nd breathing super loud ...her sighs echoing thru the vastness of the room.

Shivaay felt pain like never felt before...what..who..has done this to her?

He was overwhelmed with extreme level of care for her in this moment...nd he embraced her more tightly..

Kissing her softly on her temple. He felt her relaxing a little. Considering tht a positive sign..shivaay knew what he had to do..

"ANNIKA...MAIN HOON YAHAN"

HE declared again in an emotionally choked voice... softly kissing her eye...then d next...

He was murmuring the words repeatedly...placing soft kisses all over her face...

Annika stopped rocking..started relaxing...started comprehending nd he knew she was out of her dark trance...

She was not breathing heavily out of scare now but was sighing softly out of anticipation..nd they both knew tht the moment has taken a radical shift towards something else...

He was still kissing her softly on her cheeks but now silence ruled the room .

Then her hands unlocked ..she turned a little towards him nd she placed her hands on his chest...nd sighed

"Shivaay..."

And moment changed forever.

There sitting in d darkness...for first time in life she wasnt scared..bcoz he was there enclosing her tight.For first time..she felt safe and protected..all thanx to him..

He showed her in his own ways tht HE WAS THERE & 

For First Time..ANNIKA SAW D LIGHT.

Her lips opened on their own accord nd as if he understood the demand..he placed his on hers...if tht was not the feeling of being complete ..nothing could ever be.

Theirs was not a kiss of some unruly passion..it was soft..it was gentle..yet it was needy..yet it was affirming...theirs was a kiss of something most pure in d world...something they were yet to recognize..

It was d kiss of LOVE.

Suddenly room was brightened with light nd quite symbolically so was annika's heart.

what seemed like hours for them..were maybe few minutes...those few minutes when shivaay has entered the room nd soothed annika out of her biggest fear in life.

But then as lights went on..her senses too came rushing back..she was immediately out of trance ..nd kiss was broken.She pushed him back a little nd was suddenly so shy.

Shivaay was too taken aback by the intensity of it all...both were suddenly awkward nd weird..his hand reached out to her nd he looked at her..but she couldnt..

How could she?

Shivaay said questiongly nd confused "annika..."

But she neither looked..nor replied...

She just looked up straight... went back a little..got up super fast nd ran out of d room ..in blink of an eye.

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From Disgust To Destiny

A short story tht cropped in my ever imagining mind after watching a recent something on TV about PROSTITUTION(((ofcourse its short as per my standards only)))

FROM DISGUST TO DESTINY...

And she lied lifeless....it was 4th of the night or was it 5th...her brain had stopped registering the count many months ago.She knew of only one routine...to be used as an equipment in night..to feel like filth in d morning. Will this one too throw money on her naked breasts and smirk the satisfied sarcastic smile or will this one not even found her worthy of even sarcasm and laugh at her for being a shitty waste and claim that his money was wasted.Whatsoever be the result of every encounter, none of them could make her feel anymore disgusted at her being .She has reached her limit.She once a brilliant student is now a worthless prostitute.

She is now losing the memory of the day she was engulfed by this horrendous devil industry of  prostitution ..formed of naked bodies and wealthy sadistic monsters.She feels as soulless as a womb aborted by force for carrying a female sex.She feels as dirty as a human scavenger who collects shit of others.

Suddenly there is a loud chaos outside her cubicle of sexual duties.Someone force opens the door and her latest client is thrown out.And there is HIM...the shadow of a man who picks up the rag tht forms a part of her clothing and covers her up.

""Cover urself up fast and get out"".She did as asked to , bcoz by now her brain has been trained to follow orders with no voice of its own.The shadow becomes a male figure outside the room and holds her by wrist.After what feels like centuries , she feels  a humane touch and not the touch of lust.She gets shocked by the now unknown territory of being cared for as a human and tries to shudder away from him. Her resistance is met by his insistence as he tries to move her out of her HOME OF DISGUST. In this war of persistence..their eyes met. She feels like a girl after so long.She immediately lowers her eyelashes and rebukes her inner being to even think of having a rare shred of sanity n shame left.

The touch on the wrist converts from hold of insistence to that of gentleness as he stows her away and she is freed away from her life of unimaginable shame .

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She is behind the bars for three days now. A doctor has performed a check on her body . The inquisitive lady even tried to check her for a soul or a heart or a mind but her attempts failed . BUT STILL..Her body likes it here. No one asks it here to perform at night. It is fed ,even if heinous meals...it is atleast properly clothed here.  It feels like being a HER here.

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The gentle eyes have made her a visit today and are right now examining her as if trying to recognize. Is he trying to search a soul in her or his search limited to her now forgotten voice only.

Suddenly he speaks, "" Are u SHRADHHA DAS??""

 

The name does rings a bell to her mind.WAS SHE??

His probing eyes do demand some kind of answer but she have lost her voice to her screams many months ago.

The caring man speaks in a tender voice " u can always reply thru a shake of head as yes or no".

She looks at him utterly confused.First, she doesnt remembers her name and second, how can someone speak so politely to her.She finds it shameful . SHE WHO DISGUSTS EVEN HERSELF ,FINDS CARE AS A MOCKERY FAR DISGRACEFUL THAN HER ALL PREVIOUS RAPES EVERY NIGHT.

He shakes his head in exasperation..again holds her by wrist and starts walking outside the bars and into his jeep.

She again does nothing and let herself be moved along like a lifeless puppet.

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They r standing outside a house. It feels so much familiar and the garden smells so nice. The aroma of freshly made food is attacking her nostrils.She closes her eyes and tries to absorb all the heavenly smells.She feels alive here....she feels like knowing this place in her past life...IS IT HOME??

Suddenly the door opens and an elderly man is standing there.Her eyes do the crime of looking and it all flashes back ...yup SHE IS HOME...YEAHH SHE IS SHRADHHA....named as a worshipping omen to almighty...AND YESSSS THAT IS HER FATHER.

Her vocals suddenly found a life and she yelps..."Papa..."

Even the man with the gentle eyes is shocked at her reaction but then he smiles. Her eyes smile back after too long a life of soulless existence but then her eyes roam back to her father and her soul is again snatched away.

She finds the eyes of her father going through various emotions... sadness, pain, shock and DISGUST .His creator is looking at her in the most ashamed way. She suddenly finds herself hiding behind her protector..the only man with eyes full of warmth for her than shame.

"Sir, I have brought ur daughter home"..the caring man speaks.

"I have no daughter.GO AWAY".

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They are driving back. She feels like a mechanical instrument who experienced being injected with life for few moments but now again being slammed back to its technical self of mere existence. She wants to go back behind her bars.Her body atleast likes it there.

The jeep screeches to a halt.She is again held by the gentlest touch and moved out of the jeep into a house.

But this time..its yet another home.She wants to run away.She doesnt wants to meet people who live here..doesnt wants to again experience the similar eyes full of disgust for her as her father.

She thinks of once again using her vocal chords to voice out her thoughts but then her protector speaks

"Shraddha,,this is my home. I live here with an aunt from my village who takes care of the house.She is like a mother to me.You will live here with us. You dont need to feel scared here.You are in safe hands".

On listening to his last words..Her eyes immediately looked at her hands cocooned warmly in his. She felt his sudden awkwardness and her hands were released...but yet again..she never found his touch hideous and dirty as compared to all the other touches she has been receiving.

Her eyes smile at his sudden flustering and he smiles back .

""Okay"" she softly replies and lowers her eyelashes.

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She likes it here. It may not be her home but it feels no less than one.She now knows that her protector is a man who means his words.She feels safe here. She even knows his name now.."Rajbir Shekhawat" and just thinking about him makes her heart tingle.

YUP..She has again started feeling her heart.Rajbir's aunt takes care of her as if she is a porcelain  doll who would break if not given proper love and care.Here..she is free from eyes full of disgust.

And the most strangest thing according to her has happened after coming to this house is that..she has gained her voice back. She loves her chats with aunt as much as she waits for those few monosyllables exchanged with her benefactor in evening.

She feels this never felt before shyness in his vicinity. Her man of gentle eyes is also a man of few words but then she has watched him discreetly many a times ..when he is interacting with his aunt and his demeanour totally changes.They laugh n chat together and sometimes she feels disappointed to not have the courage to share same easy going camaraderie with him.

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It has been months now since her stay in his house.She and him have started talking in easy ways now. Now, she no more experiences those horrendous nightmares of her past life at night.She feels like they are friends now.He has persuaded her into joining her college back again from next session.Although, she still has apprehensions about those prying eyes n dreaded looks towards her by people when she goes out but somehow she has adapted this truth of her past to be a part of her future realities . She no longer gets affected by the disgust in peoples' eyes.Maybe bcoz his silent support n encouraging words have given her confidence to respect herself once again.

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From last few days, he is behaving very awkward in her company..as if he wants to say something but couldnt get himself to say it.Is this what she is thinking?? Does he experiences it too?? IS THIS LOVE ??

Can she too start dreaming again?? Maybe she can too be lucky enough to have a normal life....maybe she is not as unworthy as she believed herself to be.Will she be able to live upto his expectations???? So many questions keep jumbling in her mind but then he gives her one soft look and she forgets them all.No these eyes are not those lustful eyes of filthy propositions..these are EYES OF LOVE.

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Today will be one year since her stay at his house.He has decided to celebrate this day as her birthday...birth of her new life.She is feeling so awkward with all this attention but at the same time she is so excited inside. In the evening, he brings a cake and also invites few of his friends from work at home.No..these eyes no longer remember her days of prostitution...these all are treating her as a fellow human again.And then all of a sudden when she has cut the cake and hall is bumming with voices of wishes and claps of happiness for her...he shares an instantaneous understanding look with his aunt and boldly holds her hands and says

""WILL U MARRY ME..SHRADHHA???""

Her shock knows no bounds.

Her happiness wants to soar high.

Her once filthy body today feels like a princess.

Her once shredded heart wants to sing aloud.

THE DISGUSTED PROSTITUTE OF PAST

HAS FOUND HER DESTINY WITH A PROMISE OF FUTURE FULL OF RESPECT AND LOVE.

SHE ""THE LADY""  IS LUCKY AMONG ALL THOSE CROWDS OF UNLUCKY ONES TO HAVE FINALLY GOT HER FREEDOM .

This freedom is not because someone has raised above norms of society to accept her hands in marriage...this freedom is of being respected once again as an equal human being.

She shyly smiles in acceptance and there is no looking back.

P.S.   Just saw something on tv abt the lives of these ladies which moved me to tears and I was somehow questioning myself..this can happen to anyone...we all live the protected lives but are we ever far away of this danger..if someday I meet such unlucky soul then forbidding the practicalities of the world..will I have the courage to fight for her?? Will I be human enough to treat her as equal human? WILL I HAVE THE GUTS TO BE RAJBIR SHEKHAWAT?

Just think.